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Saturday, September 24, 2005

today was a nice day... went to school at around 10 am in the morning for E1 which was terribly beneficial. thank u mrs creffield... you are a great teacher. after that we (deb, me, ruth, amaria, ethel, jolene and sam) went down to dover market for lunch... i actually wanted to go home and do revision already... but i didn't... instead i went back to school and studied with the girls. we had an awesome time... u guys rock man... we had a really wonky time, but yeah... i just love u people. muaks.

by around 6.30pm everyone had left except for me and amria who was going to church for the night. and yeah, we had a really nice talk. it was really cool talking to her... we talked loads about things that i never thought i'd be able to share and i was actually quite pleased that we managed to share about God with Sonya (aa1) while we were studying... woo hoo... yep. i guess this is what God calls sowing the seeds. =)

i don't know... i've always questioned God's real plan for me... sometimes i wonder... God, why on earth do u put me in such situations... why put me through so much trials and temptations... why why why?

i've been reading Max Lucardo's 'It's Not About Me' these few days and really meditating on the things that God has revealed through the book. the first chapter talks about 'Bumping Life off Self Centre' and truely, everything in it spoke directly to me... we do live in an awfully self centred world. i admit, i've more than once been extremely self centred... but the scary thing is, i realise that self centredness is not always something that people do consciously... it is sometimes an unconscious act.

Max Lucardo's book reads: 'When God looks at the centre of the universe, he doesn't look at you. When heaven's stagehands direct the spotlight towards the star of the show, I need no sunglasses,. No light falls on me. Lesser orbs, that's us. Appreciated. Valued. Loved dearly. But central? Essential? Pivotal? Nope. Sorry. Contrary to the Ptolemy within us, the world does not revolve around us. Our comfort is not God's priority. If it is, something's gone awry. If we are the marquee event, how do we explain flat-earth challenges like death, disease, slumping economics, or rumbling earthquakes? If God exists to please us, then shouldn't we always be pleased?'

thought provoking huh? never realised how selfish we are in thoughts and deeds? lol... i must admit that i'm guilty sometime or another of such thoughts... but that's not all... there's more...

'We've been demanding our way and stamping our feet since infancy. Aren't we all born with a default drive set on selfishness? I want a spouse who makes me happy and coworkers who always ask my opinion. I want weather that suits me and traffic that helps me and a government that serves me. It is all about me... Can you imagine an orchestra with an "it's all about me" outlook? Each artist clamouring for self expression. Tubas blasting nonstop. Percussionists pounding to get attention. The cellist shoving the flutist out of the centre-stage chair. The trumpeter standing atop the conductor's stool tooting his horn. Sheet music disregarded. Conductor ignored... Harmony? hardly. Happiness? Are the musicians happy to be in the group? Not at all. Who enjoys contributing to a cacophony? You don't. We don't. We were not made to live this way. But aren't we guilty of doing just that?'

aren't those words terribly true. doesn't it just hit you where it hurts? are we not all guilty of being so selfish many a times and expecting God to do things for us... are we not meant everytime we come to Him to humble our hearts and truely seek His face and not His hands?

Max Lucardo continues, saying: 'What would happen if we took our places and played our parts? If we played the music the Maestro gave us to play? If we made his song our highest priority? ... We'd see our suffering differently. "My pain prives God's absence" would be replaced with "My pain expands God's prupose." ... Life makes sense when we accept our place. The gift of pleasures, the purpose of problems - all for him. The God- centred life works. And it rescues us from a life that doesn't. '

such true words. sometimes when we face just trial in our lives and find that its very hard to go on, we question God about why He allows such things to be in our lives... trials do come and will come, whether its a Christian or non-Christian, trials are bound to be there in your life... yet, how you deal with these situations are very important and the conscious choice to make God your focus despite your trials is the ultimate test.

Habakkuk 3:17 - 19:
'Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the feilds produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet i will rejoice in the Lord, i will be joyful in God my Saviour. The Soveriegn Lord is my strength; hje makes my feet like the feet of a deer, he enables me to go on the heights.'

Habakkuk prayer this prayer to God during something that would be of great calamity to him. think of it this way, the crops he planted were failing, there were no more livestock in the pen or stalls. everything was barren. YET, he chose to trust in the Lord and be joyful? you might think he is insane. if it sounds foreign, let me give you an analogy that would apply to us a bit better... if you start failing your tests, and your best friend went overseas (or worse, backstabs u... meeps.) and everyone around you is having problems of their own which they unknowingly unload on you and make u feel really really tired... what would u do? would u be like Habakkuk?

The Lord never fails to assure us that, yes He is there and He will always be there for us as long as we cling oh so tightly on Him and fix our eyes on Him and Him alone, knowing that He will see us through our trials and tribulations. The devil never fails to come and attack us whenever he sees that we are walking closer and closer to God, but will we let him shake our firm foundation? DUH NO. lol. The devil has been in existance ever since the beginning of the earth so he knows full well man's nature and weaknesses and it is no wonder that we are often attacked at our weakest points. but still God assures us that He is there to watch over us, and yes, not once, not twice, but over and over and over again in the bible that He is there for us.

Isaiah 40: 26-31
'Look up into the ehavens! Who created all these stars? As a shepherd leads his sheep, calling each by its pet name, and counts them to see that none are lost or strayed, so God does with stars and planets! O Jacob, O Israel, how can you say that the Lord doesn't see your troubles and isn't being fair? Don't you yet understand? Don't you know by now that the everlasting God, the Creator of the farthest part of the earth, never grows faint or weary? No one can fathom the depths of his understanding. He gives power to the tired and worn out, and strength to the weak. Even youths shall be exhausted, and the young men will all give up. But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. They shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.'

Isaiah 43:2
'When you walk through the waters, i will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walkthrough the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.'

1 Corinthians 10:12-13
'So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don't fall! No temptation has seized you except what is common to men. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.'

so many times He assures us that His love for us never fails and that we sinply have to trust in Him in every situation, every step of the way, and He will carry us through it because of the perfect plan He has for us. Trust that in His master plan, everything will be all right because the conductor of the orchestra knows the music best. He knows what is the best way to shape the music just as long as you fix your eyes on Him and trust Him with all your heart and by doing so, you are no longer having the 'its all about me' attitude. instead, your focus would be on Him and Him always. yeap.

wow... hmm... such a simple thing: trust. yet, sometimes, so difficult to exercise... lol. =)

ok... i need to go and bathe le.

toodles!

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